Momma's Jealousy

Throughout high school and early college I worked in different childcare centers. I knew after working there that if it could be helped, I didn’t want my children going to one. Nothing bad happened, it was just that I would have liked to have someone more hands on and less children.

Once Jeremy and I decided to have children that was one thing we agreed on right away. At that time, we weren’t even sure if we would find anyone. While I was pregnant, I searched and searched for an in-home childcare. After many interviews and many times leaving with that gut feeling of “I can’t leave my child there”, I really thought we were out of luck. Until one day, I was referred to a woman named Laura from another woman (who we were going to use at one time). Laura has been an absolute blessing. Mrs. Laura also cares for 2 other children, Sutton 5 mos., and Avery almost 7 mos. They are all right there together. She is wonderful with them and I could not image Finley anywhere else.

Finley goes to Mrs. Laura part-time. In a month, she only attends 6-8 days and stays home with Jeremy on the days that he is not at work. We are so blessed not to have to send her to daycare and most importantly that Jeremy wants to stay home with her. I have asked Jeremy several times over the last few months if he wanted me to send Finley to Mrs. Laura another day during the week so he could have a break and he says ‘No, she doesn’t need to go”. I don’t know many men that would do that! I think she grows on him more every day.

All this leads to why mama is jealous. The bottom line, I wish I could stay home with Finley, however, that is why I come to work every day, to provide her with a better life. If I stay home, it would take so many things away from her and probably cause her daddy to work another full-time job. This would cause him to see her and I less often and we don’t want that.

I get so jealous that he gets to stay home with her and tell me all about how her day was. The other day Finley was chewing on her tongue and I said “Jeremy, I think she has something in her mouth?” and he said, “No, she has been doing that the last couple of days” Hmmm, I thought to myself. He does stay home with her and probably knows more about what she has been doing. One of the first weeks I was back at work, I came home to my daughter sticking her tongue out at her daddy! I said, “Oh my, what have you taught her?” Jeremy said, “Watch!” He would stick his tongue out at her and she would do it back! I’m sure this is the FIRST of many things that he is going to teach her, but it makes me sad to know that it’s not me. With all that said, I'm jealous that my husband can stay home with our baby girl during the day while I go to work.

All this leads me to my next blog on what goes on at the Morris house during a whole week! Oh, did I mention that I'm only jealous on days that Jeremy is home! I too, get my alone time with her on the weekends when Jeremy is at work! I guess it all works on in the end.